Safe and here.

WOW what a storm that rolled through here, very scary, very slap you in the face am I where I need to be in my life type of storm.  The day after there were many rose colored glasses in our neighborhood.

I can't even imagine.  I can't believe what those people in the south had to endure for days, for the towns that are missing.  WOW.

All I can say it rattled me, of course everything has rattled me as of lately I guess because I am so sure that I am not on the right path, I am not on my path but I am sure I have gotten on a path that isn't horrible but just not what brings the best of me out for others.

We are dealing with such a host if issues in our house.  House repairs big ones with little resources, health issues of course. The eye deal with Anneleise turned worse and ended up in three pair of glasses two three sets of lenses and eventually another whole exam and set up and a lot worse outcome.  Our life of course.  We have dealt with Lice. Yes. Lice We have had the Influenza A B virus for three months, yesterday I took my moms dog and had her put down while my mom sat in my arms and cried as my 4 yr old does.  Buffy helped soften the blow of my dads passing.  Beka most surely has ADHA hyperactivity and coexisting issues or she needs an exorcism...Atty were starting lupus and juvenile arthritis testing.  I have missed every doctors appt for myself in the last 2 years.

I still think of post, but just can hardly relive the days to vent about them, lately I end each day thankful I made it and in prayer that tomorrow will be better.

Over and out, I will be back...I will share cause if I don't I will explode.

Storm a brewing!

So so much to post about several started but I am pacing the floor waiting for the "storm" o hit, trying not to freak my kids out and keep the hubs motivate to help me prepare for the worse...

Not enough hands to save everything in my house.

Hubs
3 small children
3 cats
1 puppy
of course myself....
2 hands?
Sorry hubs.

Pray for this little town in the roots of the mountians.  Should a tornado hit it will get stuck between the mountians and travel straight for us....gulp.

ruby slippers, check.

Because it's been too long...and they have grown too much!

You try to get these three stooges to behave , smile and stand still at the same time...no, seriously you try.

Really? I can open it now! (after weeks of presents coming in the house and put under the tree, I don't think she believed it finally was Christmas) 

Just a pinch, just a pinch Mom!

I know, I know,  since we returned to Disney last year this hat is showing up still, when dressing for very important dates, it is a must...and well Santa and her list...could anything be anymore serious?



She eats almost nothing, nothing...this is a face I care not to see much of but see way too often.

Come on, give me a kiss.

Are you seeing a pattern with this child ye? Drama is in her future, heck who am I kidding, she is all drama!

Obi...need EYE say more...this little eye bob thing helped her speech so much! I let her take it ever where, I tried to claim it this year on taxes...accounted said it had to have a heart and a brain....

She was willing to accept the sucker, the ornament and he take her request for Christmas this year but she kept her safe distance.

All eyes on deck...

~*We have glasses.
~*They were less than "Bling", actually very dark and blah. (my husbands communications skill are a whole      other post)
~*They look much like the "birth control" army issued glasses.
~*When I asked her why those? She responded they are just like Velma on Scoooby Doo and well she is in     love with Scooby, our dog is named Scooby and anything webbed cause she wants to marry her Prince     Charming Fred or Spiderman.
~* In 4 hours of getting them we have been back 2 times for adjustments, they are way too big.
~* Four phone calls and on this morning to finally get them to offer to change out her costly glasses.
~* I searched yesterday day or a pair of frames and they had 6...4 wont work.
~* As soon as Tom gets in the driveway her and I are headed out to get a pair for her that work.
~*My jaw hit the ground, the left eye lens is thick, like "coke bottle" thick, which is fine if it helps but made 
    me get a lump in my throat cause it just added to her already disproportionate features. Literally if you in  
    front of her the left eye is huge. Makes me hurt for her cause at 4 she has been called a monster when she
    smiles by no less than a teachers aide....so this should add yet another layer of what won't kill you
    will make you stronger to her.
~*The man after the 2nd adjustment referred to her as a child with awkward facial features and a weird head    shape....duh ass wipe remember the whole conversation of birth issue?
~*She broke my heart with this conversation...
   "I can see better Mom"
   "You can?, that's great baby!, and you look so cute to add..."
   "I can see the trees, the flowers, the cows, the....oh look they have a birdbath in their yard!"
   "What can you see best, what looks better with your glasses on than without them on?
   "the birds, the trees, he cars...oh they whole world!"
   "gulp"....crickets....
~* Today, this week, I really need to get me a pair of those glasses that just make the world look 
    better when you put them on.
~* I'm very weary of people not doing their jobs, dropping the ball or just flat out not caring...I do a lot of     work that I should not have to and pay people for a service that in the end is causing me more work.
~*School is out this week and instead of it being a relaxing fun week here, it is day camp night camp    toddlerville and obviously at the look of my kitchen and pantry been the soup kitchen since Saturday and
   will have to reload in time for Easter dinner, of course at my house.
I have a lot to wrote out here but of course I am struggling with blogger...what is the deal, I can't get my pictures to go up I can not get my alignment to stay right .... Usually this is where I just delete it and walk away and wait another 2 weeks before I try but me and blogger are going to square off on this and onde day, just one day your going get on here and Bammmm....an awsome looking post with pictures and the works.
A girls gotta have a goal.

Eye will see you tomorrow...

So long story short, and there is a long story here for another night.  Tomorrow we go pick up Anneleise's glasses.  Yup.  The chick is sportn' some new Elton John's.

She is excited.  We will see.

I will load a picture as soon as I can.  But I will leave you with some suspense and a "What would you do?" question.

Sent her to the exam with Tom, he needed one too, he let her pick them out before calling to even tell me she needed them.  The are pink and purple, they have "shiny dots".  I know they have shiny dots cause after I let air reenter the room I was in during the follow up phone call that i received obviously too late I called the store and the only warranty is that on the "jewels/gems"....

Seriously....Who does that?

Yep your right.

Tom would do that.

Sigh.

Update later.

Oh yeah and although I would love to hear your comments on what you would do...for apparent reasons, killing him is not an option...well especially since the whole heat of the moment has past...laughing sort of.

Im at a loss.

There is just so much to me.  The title of this blog originally was a simple being.  On a quest to just be simple, I have become very difficult.  I have spent way too much time trying to get me.  I have so much to talk about and but in a house the majority of the time alone with 3 children ~ small, 3 cats ~ insane psycho, 1 pup ~ maybe on borrowed time!, Tom ~ well Tom, and me ~ not my first choice...the post swirl and percolate and are really good but when it comes time to write them, they just dont feel important enough, sound whiney, stupid, or lets be honest there isnt a lot of intrest here.  So even here on the blogosphere, I am lonley.

There is family but remove what we don't talk about, what we shouldn't say, what you can't say, the need to be contagiusly happy all the time...seriously it is a lot like work.

The who what when where of me 5 years ago was different than now, so much has happened, you guys only know so little.  So I am going to redo this blog, this blogging thing will be for me again, if you read and want to follow staytuned, if not well it would have been nice knowing you.

I hope to have it up in 2 weeks. We will see.  Old habits are hard to quit.  I will see.